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Writing with Depression

I’m going to be overly honest in this blog post, but I think it’s important. I’ve been in a horrific depressive slump since 17th January. How do I know the date? Because that was the day I finished my first draft.

I’ve had depression since I was a young teen (and I’m now coming up to my 30th birthday). It all stems from an instance of sexual abuse when I was 14, as well as what I think is a genetic disposition to the illness.

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It’s the worst thing. I really feel like this is suffering – not the worst suffering in the world, but enough to make me contemplate taking my own life on a near daily basis.

I don’t know about anyone else, but being a writer with depression is tough. Writing is a solitary and difficult process anyway, but when you have depression, it feels even more difficult. The self-depreciation gets worse and worse. Every word becomes a stab to the heart.

Look, this is awful. You’re a failure at this, just like you’re a failure at life.”

Painful. Utterly painful.

Why am I writing this blog post? I suppose it’s a call out, a way of screeching from the top of a mountain.

I exist!”

Depression is something that a lot of us suffer from, and I wonder if the proportion of writers with depression is higher than in other areas.

So if you’re a writer with depression, sound off with me. We exist. We suffer.

But we’re still here.

29th September – 31 Days and Counting…

Sunday Reblog: What little advice I have, I offer…

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19. What advice do you have for new writers?  Keep writing! It’s as simple as that. Honestly, people often say to me, “Oh, I want to be a writer, but I don’t think I’m good …

Source: 29th September – 31 Days and Counting…

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Debut novel out NOW!

Rise of the Darkwitch – “a diverse world which is unlike much which I have read before.”

“A highly imaginative fantasy world with a tightly plotted and structured story which zips along to a satisfying conclusion and leaves you eager for the next instalment in the series.

IndiePub Adventures: Social Media – When You’re Anti-Social

You may have noticed that I disappeared from social media for a week. You may not have. Either way, I’d like to write about why I chose to remove myself from the online world for seven days.

Frankly, it was stress.

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That sounds insane. Social networking is supposed to be all about making positive connections, about coming together and talking, having fun. For me, it wasn’t—and I don’t think it will be again.

This is because I find the marketing and networking side of writing so stressful.

Yes, I know. There are those of you who are now scoffing (“If you can’t take the heat, get out of the kitchen” and all that jazz). Unfortunately, the constant buzz and whistle of my phone as another Twitter notification pops up, or another reminder of a Facebook post, has proven to be intolerable.

I think it’s because it makes me feel like I’m falling behind.

I work a full time job as a teacher as well as being a writer, and it’s a stressful enough job on its own. It’s not the worst job on the planet, and I’m privileged to be able to do it. However, I’ve read so much online about marketing for writers, and about how you need to be online every day, always making connections and plugging your books.

For me, this is too much, on top of an already-social job. The reason? I’m a pretty anti-social person. I like my solitude. That’s part of the reason why I write so much, so fast. I love being stuck inside my characters’ heads and their world, finding out what happens next.

For someone like me, the constant ping of social media is barely tolerable. But so too is the thought of failure. I feel like I have to be online to try and claw my way into some kind of spotlight, but I never get there—and end up feeling suffocated by all the social media interaction that, sometimes, feels like an echo chamber. And like it’s going nowhere.

The idea of going nowhere links back to my point that you may not have noticed I was gone, because frankly, you probably didn’t. I’m like a little bubble in a big ocean: barely visible.

But still here.

28th September – 32 Days and Counting…

Another reblog, this time, on what inspires me…

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18. What inspires you to get out of bed every day? The knowledge that I’m still alive. Truly. That might sound a bi…

Source: 28th September – 32 Days and Counting…

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Debut novel out NOW!

Rise of the Darkwitch – “a diverse world which is unlike much which I have read before.”

“A highly imaginative fantasy world with a tightly plotted and structured story which zips along to a satisfying conclusion and leaves you eager for the next instalment in the series.”